Why I became an Artist

My Journey to self discovery

In the facade of what appeared to be a fulfilling life, a persistent emptiness tugged at my soul. Despite external harmony, I yearned for a connection that transcended the superficial, prompting a deep introspection. 

 

As I reflected on my past, I remember the carefree days of childhood when drawing castles after school brought immeasurable joy. The nostalgia of those moments revealed a longing for genuine happiness that had faded with time.

 

In the quest for fulfillment, I contemplated therapy, hoping to discover the key to my persistent emptiness. Yet, in the introspective silence, I realized therapy wasn't the answer. Instead, it was a beckoning call to return to the activities that had once ignited the flame of joy. And so, my transformative journey began with a deliberate choice – enrolling in an art school, peeling away the layers to reveal my authentic self. 

 

Years of self-imposed introversion crumbled in the face of newfound camaraderie with fellow artists. It wasn't that I was an introvert; I simply hadn't found my place in the world. The shared passion fueled creativity, lifting spirits and opening a door to a sense of belonging that I had long yearned for. 

 

Becoming an artist has provided me with a unique avenue to communicate my perception of the world and the vast spectrum of human emotions. I longed for others to authentically know me, to see the world through the lens of my experiences. 

 

In the pursuit of my artistic passion, I made a deliberate choice to shed the mask that concealed my true self. Insecurities, fear of rejection, and judgment had kept me hidden. 

But the allure of artistic expression helped me step into the light.  

 

The quest for a better life led me to a simple yet profound question: "What do you want to do that you know will make you happy?" The answer was clear – art. Its healing power became undeniable, a force that words couldn't adequately capture. 

 

Choosing to be an artist was not merely an act of self-discovery; it became a profound expression of gratitude. It was a commitment to offer my genuine self to the world, using art as a conduit for self-love and liberation from the chains of insecurities and fears. 

 

With lingering traces of fear still present, I have embarked on a transformative journey, determined to offer the very best of myself to the world. No longer shackled by apprehension, I have wholeheartedly embraced my path with determination. My commitment stands unwavering, as I fearlessly defend my chosen course, dedicating my life to the realm of art. This odyssey is not merely a pursuit of creativity; it is a profound voyage of self-discovery, a vessel for healing, and an authentic expression of my truest self.

 

Natalia  Mancilla 
March 3, 2024